aff getting lazy to update already~ XD thats so bad huh? =X anyways lets see what happened past weekend D= ah went clubbing with james and chrissy friday =D pretty fun but man am i a noob or am i a noob T-T went wearin real high heels an ed hardy tee and jeans D= kakaka after the first couple songs i was soaked in sweat aff was so hot D= but incredibly my feet wasnt hurting =D those heels are so comfy<333 puahaha anyways.. first time at the club was pretty fun~ found out that i really enjoy dancing! hehehe 

afterwards we headed to rosen D= we were hugry wanted to get some food but at the same time we wanted to go nrb~ so rosen gogogo XD we ordered about forty bucks in food? kimchi pohkumbab, najji teekim, ddokbokkee, and something else i dont remember? D= anyways... ate some wasted whole bunch of singing time cuz we were eating! puahaha ah later oppa and elihu dropped by and played with us! yay =D it was pretty fun.. sang til around 4:30am since that was the time they closed T-T headed home and knocked out D=

next morning chrissy and i headed to her house around 10? cuz jeesung onni needa take a test so we went had some breakfast and dropped her off.. wen we got back at her house.. we were watching ouran high school host club the time.. aff so fun =D thanks chrissy for making me addicted to ouran and vampire knight aff -.-;;

ah~ after we meet up with euree? yuri? aff i dunno how to spell her name T-T vickii went to get some baskin robbins *pukes* we ended up meeting with michelle onni =D then headed towards the grove to get some andre's spaghetti =D it was pretty good.. after we went to yellow house.. LTG talk for about four hours? man i ordered a cup of plum tea and geez i tot it was gonna be a lil tea pot like sanjang.. but i was so wrong.. T-T soo i paid 6bucks for one cup of tea.. lame -.-;;; 

next day church =D (lil sharon took these hehe) sang for the first time on the praise team~ aff i know i cant sing well but all i could think about while i was up there was that i wasnt doing this for anyone there or for myself it was to worship God.. so i felt pretty confident =P hehehe even tho chrissy sings freaken high T-T aff.. hmm that day was pretty chill hehe =] went to burbank to shop for chrissys omma bday gift.. then went to ikea to eat swedish meat balls *drools* so yummy heheh =P got back home and knocked out =Dmonday didnt do a thing.. just stayed home =D aff<333 ah played a tour of alba and geez finally came to the conclusion that i'm over  the albacrack addiction =] not "craving" to play when i got nothing to do anymore.. =D hurray! *throws confetti* so i guess there is no begging to get back on one, or people hating me for joining a2a, or randomly joining ick D= kakaka XD man if i think about the amount of money i spent on that game cudda bought a laptop T-T oh well it was fun the times i played heheh<33

anywayssssss ta taaaaaaaaaa =D

ah one more thing! kakakka nich khun! the dude that was on the tennis team when i first moved to fontana is going to debut soon =O on a boyband 열혈남아~ man i honestly thought he would be like kim kibum D= who cant sing for krap~ but khun is pretty decent =P heheh i think with more training he'll do just fine! kaka go dominate korea khun!! =D fighting!

"A hurricane, a hurricane
Is sometimes the only way to wash away the pain
A hurricane, a hurricane
Is sometimes the only thing that brings you back again.."

question of the day: to do hw or not to do hw? :>

ONE!
Time is tickin′. T-Time is tickin′, tickin′.
Time is tickin′, T-Time is tickin′ away...
I want to see your tears pour out, pour out without reason
No one knows inside your heart, The glass fragments raging a storm
The wounds become a sickness, All doors become a wall
I've become an enemy in the mirror, doesn't it hurt?
[I'll] keep anyone from knowing about you, [I'll] leave the breath to tighten out
I'll force you to choose the end, (aren't I bad?), I'll take away all reason in this world for you to to stand
Without the choice of the road back, [I guess] you'll walk to the end
Your breath would probably end before my heart
Wounds... Scars... Tears... Flowing
(When you cry. though you try. say goodbye. the time is tickin′)
You are wandering through death, (I'll save you...)
(When you cry. though you try. say goodbye. the time is tickin′)
You are the one.
When you're walking in shadows
(When I'm panicking in the shadows, my breath does the same)
you are my savior
I'll reach my hand out to you
(When all the doors in the world close for me, I'll support you with my hand)
you are the one. you are my savior.
Time is tickin′. T...
Your hand set the world on fire, You closed everyone's eyes
The suffering that was reflected in your eyes like stars become your city
Are your still dreaming, sleeping? Are you measuring all the tears you've shed?
Hope is a paper boat that sinks, isn't it sad?
Maybe you wake up drenched in sweat at night, Is consciousness crawling on the floor?
Are you thinking it's the end, are you ok? 'cause I understand
I'm a scar on your broken body, I'll erase the tears you've hidden away in your shattered marriage
I'll grab your hand With my hand and trust you
You are wandering through death, (I'll save you...)
(When you cry. though you try. say goodbye. the time is tickin′)
You are the one.
When you're walking in shadows
(When I'm panicking in the shadows, my breath does the same)
you are my savior
I'll reach my hand out to you
(When all the doors in the world close, I'll support you with my hand)
you are the one. you are my savior.
you are the one. you are my savior.
Do you have wounds, do you have scars, Are you wandering through shadows?
Do you have wounds, do you have scars, Are you wandering through shadows?
(Faith, Destiny, Love.)
you′re still beautiful to me.
You are the one.
When you're walking in shadows
(When I'm panicking in the shadows, my breath does the same)
you are my savior
I'll reach my hand out to you
(When all the doors in the world close for me, I'll support you with my hand)
Time is tickin′. T-Time is tickin′, tickin′.
Time is tickin′, T-Time is tickin′ away...
My savior.
ONE!

where is my savior? im going fucking insane.. afffff

just came back from a trip to laguna beach.. the beach was so nice.. perfect in fact away from hectic los angeles.. tranquil atmosphere gave me time to think about things i should let go.. been praying for God to help me let go of the past move on and start something new.. but everytime im stepping foward i keep looking back.. i want to go back.. i want to go back so much.. but i'll chamoh~ anyways lets to keep this happy D= back to the beach amazing three days =] had lots and lots of fun.. met bunch of fun people =D sometimes i wish i could just runaway and live for the rest of my life staring into the vast blue ocean.. the beach is just that beautiful T-T keke so chill.. meet few people at the beach~ even tho i forgot their name XD ish like i forget their name the second after i hear it D= played beach volleyball.. james the one man team was on my team kakak had to do almost nothing =P

maybe ill explain the second day in more detail D= and pics

woke up around 6am and went to take a walk by the beach.. it was so cold.. hehe but loved it.. simply love the sound of the waves crashing down.. man i was so scared as i was walking tho.. there was a tunnel for pedestrians and geez it was sorta dark and scary T-T i ran like no other D= ah there was a creek next to the inn were stayed at Aliso Creek Inn~

later that day after breakfast we were getting rdy to go to the beach =D the famous bathroom pic *claps* we got bored while waiting and took some pics at the golf course D= (the inn had a golf course) hehe chrissy jump shot =D looks nice eh? fun stuff.. more pics of the inn.. hehe we were right in the mid of hills.. pretty =O

finally headed to the beach played beach vball til we dropped and geezz D= meet these two dudes and boomer (doggie) they were so nice.. we were going to play that horse shoe or shoe horse? D= game but never got the time to~ so we left b4 we did T-T ah met two taiwanese boys they were pretty cute =O probably like college grads.. they invited us to get some gelato italian ice cream.. one of them was the owner of "tutto amore gelato" aff never got to go tho T-T anyhow it was fun D= some random pics there of daniel and james playin the w/e game name that thing is.. to win 10bucks kakak whoever made 10 got 10bucks ^.~ @slap the other daniel! wake up dude D=

aff the rest of the days dun wanna write D= way too much stuff to write~ did so much in these few three days =P this be when we were heading back.. went to south coast plaza to get something to eat and go shopping =D we got claim jumper.. so yummy shopped til like 5pm XD and headed home =] came home and left to chinatown for dinner with onni, howard, simon, and johnny D= after dinner was so tired had simon give me a pigback ride~ simon<33 cute "little" donseng kakaka thank you dear~

anyways fun fun =D tho i still miss _________ T^T im freaken tired so ish nite nite time for me~ hehe =P cya ^-^